Saturday, December 23, 2023

Doran’s Testimony 2023

 Several years ago, Tanya and I visited a synagogue in Chicago as part of a work convention. After a brief tour, the head Rabbi held a Q&A session with our small group. This Rabbi was clearly a very educated and intelligent man, and each of his responses were insightful. Towards the end of our time together, a colleague inquired about the multitude of truth claims inherent in Judaism. To the best of my recollection, the Rabbi indicated that he felt that Judaism was a good path that he had inherited, and that he was satisfied with his choice to follow the tenets of the Jewish faith. I was taken aback by the underwhelming conviction of this response, and wondered how anyone could devote so much of their lives to something that represented only “a good path.” As I have pondered this experience over the years, and hopefully matured in my understanding of things (giving myself the benefit of the doubt!), I have come to appreciate the honesty and candor of this good Rabbi. In truth, faith has never been synonymous with certitude. Alma suggests that faith represents what we are hoping for (Alma 32:21), but it isn’t what we clearly see (see also Hebrews 11:1). Similarly, we read that we view the promises of life “afar off” and can be “persuaded of them, and embrace them” (Hebrews 11:13), but the clarity of the vision is certainly not experienced with 20/20 sight. This ofttimes frustrating reality seems to be the purposeful design of mortality, which propels us to make choices about beliefs. And, according to Elder Anderson, faith is indeed a choice (CR, October 2015). This lengthy intro is the backdrop to my sharing of my personal testimony, which is a declaration of what I am seeing and what I am choosing. In many ways my testimony is living, breathing, and ever-changing —because I am living, breathing, and changing. The curriculum of life is stretching for sure, and experience is always shaping, refining, and adapting my views. So, what I see and declare today, may not be identical to what I will see and declare a year from now. But for today, here is a brief sampling of a few things I see and choose: 1) The life, teachings, and mission of Jesus fills me with things that are good. I feel peace when I think of Jesus. I feel hope when I think of Jesus. I feel strength, help and healing whenever I center my thoughts, actions, and perspective on Him. I gladly choose to believe in Jesus. 2) The joys of life always seem to be associated with relationships. Thus, the invitation to love God and neighbor are really an invitation to experience relational joy. Family life then, becomes the ideal training ground to learn how to love and be loved. I have been blessed throughout my life with a family environment where I could experience love, growth, and refinement that has blessed me at every turn. I choose to believe that families and relationships are central to what life is all about. 3) I have inherited and chosen my association with the restored Church of Jesus Christ. Although my faith is centered in Jesus, I continue to have communal experiences that are powerful, instructive, and healing. Although imperfect like me, I choose to be blessed by, and contribute to, my larger church community. 4) Finally, my own searching and pondering have led me to believe that the human family is made up of the “stuff of eternity” (see Elder Uchtdorf, CR, April 2014). The concept of eternity is something that inspires heavenly hope, help, and healing for all—especially for me! I see life as an educational course, which doesn’t conclude at the end of a limited mortal journey. As children of Heavenly Parents, our progress is Their eternal work and glory—and there are no clocks ticking or final buzzers blaring in the eternal sphere. I choose to believe that we can find hope and joy in this life—and in next—because we are all family. And that means something! Again, my imperfect attempt in this writing is to share a brief synopsis of a few things that are personally valuable that I see, experience, and choose. In essence, this is my faith—the things that I hope for, although my view certainly has mortal limitations. Likewise, I respectfully acknowledge that others may see things differently than I do—and that is okay. Seeking, experiencing, and choosing are what we are all about, and we are in it together!